Sunday, July 10, 2011

empty nest?

Wow. So my kids are gone for most of the summer. Each went to spend time with different out of state friends. One for 2 months and the other for 1. It's been pretty nice in some ways, but after about a month without my daughter and almost two weeks without my son...I'm not sure what I'm going to do with myself once they leave this nest for good. I'm absolutely dreading it. But, on the other hand, I can't wait to see what their own lives turn out to be like. I will love to 'watch' them on that totally new adventure. I hope they want to share it with me. But, now looking back at how suddenly I left my own family and how little communicating I did,(do) with them about the daily things...I see what a big gap there is between seeing my kids daily and hearing from them occasionally. It's gonna be hard. And even worse, I really do have myself wrapped up in my kids and their lives. I try to give them space, but what I mean is...I don't know what I'll do with myself once their gone. What's left? Cleaning house? Occasional visits with friends? Maybe I'll drive ppl around to appt.'s or shopping? But right now...looking at having nothing better to do than chores and a couple projects makes me want to cry. Maybe by the time I get to this bridge, there'll be something else to look forward to.